Diabetes Blog Week - Keep It To Yourself

Many of us share lots of aspects of our diabetes lives online for the world to see.  What are some of the aspects of diabetes that you choose to keep private from the internet?  Or from your family and friends?  Why is it important to keep it to yourself?  (This is not an attempt to get you out of your comfort zone.  There is no need to elaborate or tell personal stories related to these aspects.  Simply let us know what kinds of stories we will never hear you tell, and why you won't tell them.) (Thank you Scott E of Rolling in the D for this topic.)

Wow Scott came up with an extremely hard question for me to answer today as I don’t think there’s anything about diabetes that I haven’t or wouldn't share with the DOC. The anonymity of the internet makes it extremely easy for me to share without fear of consequences.

I do however keep things from my friends and family. I can’t even tell you why as I’m not sure. I didn't even realize that I was doing it until a few months ago. In February, Karen wrote this great post on what it feels like to have a low. It really resonated with me and I sent it to my husband and my mom. My mom called me as soon as she read it and told me that she had no idea that this is what happened when I had a low. I think it freaked her out quite a bit.

I’ve been thinking about why that was the first time I had sent something like that to my mom and I don’t have an answer. I don’t know if sending her stuff like that more often would help her or hurt her more. It definitely something that I will need to ease her into.

I’m probably freer with information with my husband as he’s right there. He sees the all-day highs and the all-day lows. He knows how frustrated I get when diabetes screws with my day or even when I manage to successfully maneuver through the idiosyncrasies of the disease. The only thing I probably don’t share with him is how often I cry when I’m frustrated.

As for friends, they probably know even less.

I guess what I've discovered in writing this post is that it’s really the emotional side of diabetes that I don’t share with people. I've always needed to process my emotions myself before sharing them with others. Since I received my diagnosis when I was in  my early 20’s and was living by myself, I guess I got used to dealing with this on my as well. Finding the DOC and reading about everyone else’s experiences help me deal. I may not be very vocal on twitter or the blogosphere but I’m there and I’m reading. Thanks for posting everyone!